Not for me?

I've wanted to be a nurse ever since I can remember. I received my BSN in May, and my first day of work was in June. I was extremely excited about starting my new career. However, when I got to the floor (med/surg), I was given 5 patients and an admit in the middle of the night. No one was there to help. They had their own problems. I was FREAKING out. The only nursing exp. I had was in school. (I had been an aide for 4 yrs.) Anyways, I think I was traumatized. It hasn't been as bad since my supervisor found out, but I dread going to work each night. All I can think about on my off days is how much I don't want to go to work. It's only been 2 months. Will it ever get better? I'm not sure if I want to be a nurse anymore. Sorry so whiny, just wondering if anyone else has been through the same situation?
I don't understand, didn't you have an orientation period?

This was supposedly my orientation period. I'm still on orientation.

Oh wow where was your preceptor? They can't leave you hanging like that! It will get better with time, don't let one day ruin what you prepared yourself for the last few years.

It WILL get better, but there is no reason for anyone to give you 5 patients without a preceptor. Thats just wrong. No wonder you dont want to go to work! If you stay at that job, hang in there. It will get better...and soon enough you will be in a position to be sure no one ever gets the same treatment!