I just want to scream Honesty didnt pay

As each day passes i get more and more depressed. I feel like Im losing my mind......I graduated in december 2008 with a BSN, passed boards may 2009 and has not gotten a FULL TIME job YET!!!!. I am soooooooooooo FRUSTRATED. . In august of 2009 I accepted a PRN job at the worse LTC facility in Alabama...I didnt know it was the worse, I just applied to a job that i had seen over and over in a newspaper...i got the job. ok i quit the job 3months later ... ... Meanwhile my husbands base was ordered to close. he stay until the base completley closed and the government didnt know exactly when or could give him a date..... this didnt help me any in lookin for employment, i was completely honest with employers and told them about his situation and that we didnt know when he had to leave i guess u can say i was a complete jackass for being honest...needless to say i didnt get a job in Alabama...Now we have been in Maryland for almost 2 months and I still cant get a job..... I have applied for the military spouse preference, i have applied to several hospitals...most say that i dont have experiece in the last 12 months...HoW can if Get experience if no one will hire me.....Anddd i dont know of any LTCs in the area but genesis, i have applied there and no answer. i really dont want a bad experience in another LTC I live in the Baltimore/ Washington DC area. I have applied to the jails. I would like to work in a hospital because it seems as if you have to have 1 year of med surg or telemetry for every job now including the med surg and telemetry jobs... this is causing a huge stress on my marriage and health..i have gain atleast 40 pounds from this depression...We dont have $$$ to pay for the ACLS, PALS classes that would obviously help me to obtain employment...WHAT AM I GOING TO DOOOO, I REALLY NEED HELP ????? there are 33 hospitals in this area, im applying for jobs all day everyday.... I feel like being honest really doesnt pay off....if only i hadnt been honest with nurse managers in alabama and just gotten what experience i could have i would be better off. Last edit by coastiewifey on Sep 26, '11 : Reason: better title
HONESTY
HOnesty didnt pay off for me...i wish i would have just took a job knowing that i wasnt going to be there long term but NOooooo I was being a "Moral person" ...I want my nurse manager and employers to be honest with me therefore i was honest with them and nOOOw i am a OLD new graduate without any experience....
I need to apologize for the initial comments...I was coveting. There are other ppl that are worse off than me that are applying just as well as I am. There are single mothers and women with abusive significant others who just want to get away but cant because they have no job. When I first graduate, my friend was one of these women. 2 kids and an abusive boyfriend. We went on interviews for the same positions and she end up getting a job. I was SOooo happy for her. And the kids. i didnt think about myself at all. Since then she has work a year of telemetry in Alabama. And travel nursing in Texas, ended up moving to Texas and is now engaged to another man...Soooo happy for her. up: ....sometimes we have just got to step back and let God do his work. Y should I be sooo upset about not having a job when he is supplying my every need. I have four walls and roof that surround me and my child. I am able to feed my child everyday. i dont look in the mirror and nurse burses on me from my husband's hands. When the time comes, when it is just the right job. HE will give it to me. :bowingpur. Once again I apologize for my coveting.
spell check. I dont nurse bruises on me from my husband's hands.
One thing that sticks out is that you really don't know for sure if you would have gotten the job in AL even if you had lied so imo taking the high road did pay off in terms of your moral fiber. You are fortunate to be in an excellent area for health care opportinities. Maryland/DC have many LTCs and although your heart is set on a hospital if you aren't having luck I'd start applying in other venues. Good luck.