self esteem is in the Bio Bag

It's really hard to do this. I feel stupid and like Ill never catch on and am fresh meat for any nurse who's a bully. I love my patients, but feel I'm being nibbled to death by my preceptor. I never thought a career could make me feel so bad about myself. ;( Could someone encourage me?
Hang in. I'm a newbie too. It sucks. It's hard. You feel stupid. It will not always be this way. Know that and keep on doing the best you can. It's all you can do. Learn and improve.

KEEP YOUR HEAD UP! I am sure you are doing fine. It took me right at a year of working after nursing school to combine my knowledge, my skills, and time management into a product that I was truly proud of at the end of the day! It takes its

....It takes time, and that alone, for you to feel comfortable in your own skin! One day I will catch my preceptor in a dark alley.... Just breath, it will work out!!

Awww I really felt like that too! My preceptor was amazing, she literally seemed to know EVERYTHING and could shmooze or cheer up anyone. The only problem with that, was I felt exceptionally inept as a result! She would tell me that I am not progressing as she would like, and wouldnt encourage or point out any good qualities/achievements. It was just her 'tough love' personality but It really killed my confidence, so much so that I actually looked into other careers. However, now that a little time has passed, and i've talked to a lot of other new grads (and read all the stories here at AN!) I realize that I actually am not any worse than any other new grad. We all feel like we are in way over our heads and can't catch a breath! So please realize that even though you have flaws, your preceptor may be a large part of the problem too, even if she doesn't mean to be. Some personalities just wont mesh. Remember, as long as you have that license your state feels that you are good enough! And every day only gives you a chance to get better. Hang in there