sleeplessnseattle

a cop for two yrs. Parameic Supervisor for ten yrs. An RN,ccrn,cardiovacular, open heart recovery,housesuper, all for 25 yrs. Then I awokeshackled &.handcuffed. Being transpo states away to face a sinle charge of Rx fraud. I arrive @ the Pd was bookked in & releasad on 3 yrs probation. My wife & I separated & I had my 2 yr old son. My son & I were living in a state away from my mom , when I got home one morning from a 12r hr nioc sht. The phone rang and my mother's shill voce sad she couldn't swallow. I called 911 & EMS took her to the hospital, where after I had arrived fom a hr ride. I went into tho endo lab to view an adenocarcinoma in her pharynx the size of a softball, the biopsy was matatstic. I was given the duty to ask where mom wanted to live her last days and she said with me. So, I loaded mom up and we went to okc and it was there mom passed with me at her side. I merely went through the motions o a human beig, hollow inside. Almost catatonic. I ell into lotab,etoh addiction. Sent to prison by my ex-wife's county sherrif husband for 9 mo for non=payment of a years childupport. Now I an't work for medicare/medicad due to the oig exclusion list. I'm 55 & tired. Few hire felons, even with BSN & vietnam veteran. Now I ride my motorcycle hoping my time here on earth passes by quickly. No patients were ever harmed while under my care. Thank You America
It's always amazed me that with billions of people in the world, bad luck isn't more evenly spread around. It just finds certain people, places, and times and clusters there. I feel you couldn't have posted what you did if you didn't have a good desire to rise above it all. Granted there are places that just wont consider you, but don't give up. Here's hoping you find someone who'll give you a chance to make a living along with a better life. Good luck brother.

Life is just keeps happening....hang on and I hope things can at least get stable then maybe better. Best of luck

You are still Obviously still under the influence. This venue would be helpful, if you were coherent.Get a grip, find some help in real time.Good luck, you are over the edge.

I've been clean & sober x 10yrs. Just finnished a 800+ ride, had to vent. I apologize for any misgivings.

Quote from huberusoneI've been clean & sober x 10yrs. Just finnished a 800+ ride, had to vent. I apologize for any misgivings.

Thank you, seriously. Rick

You need to get help. You are clearly exremely sad and depressed. For your childs sake if not your own please reach out to mental health therapaist ASAP.