Fantasia credits nurse for saving her

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overdose no accident, says fantasia - 'i wanted out'

two weeks after being hospitalized for overdosing on aspirin and a sleep aid, singer fantasia barrino says it was no accident. she wanted to die.

"i didn't have any fight in me. i didn't care about anything. i just wanted out," the american idol winner, 26, tells vh1 in a new behind the music interview, airing 9 p.m. et/pt tuesday, the same day her new album, back to me, is released. "at that moment, i wanted out. i wanted it to be over with - all of it, all of that [expletive]."

she continues: "i just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle. i wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. i knew exactly what i was doing. you can't accidentally take a whole bottle of pills."

barrino's manager, brian dickens, recalls finding her lying on the floor in her room. "her emotions were extremely low," he says. "she'd been crying all day. fantasia was just numb. fantasia texted me, saying 'i love you.' i wrote back, 'i love you more.' then it hit me."

"i wrote, 'you better not do anything or think about doing anything stupid.' and i left it at that. about 10 minutes later, fantasia texted me back, and she said, 'already did.' i went into fantasia's room and saw her on the floor, and my heart just dropped."

what made the successful singer, who's preparing to release her third album, want to end her life? "i was tired of people doing me wrong, constantly, over and over again, dealing with my family - my father, dealing with men and their [expletive] - i was tired," she says. "my head was hurting me. i was over it."

to complicate matters even more, barrino is now being threatened with a lawsuit by paula cook, the wife of antwaun cook, with whom fantasia had been having an affair.

"when i met him, he was separated ... wasn't living in his home. he didn't want to be back with his wife - that is what i was told," barrino says. "i remember waking up in the hospital [and thinking], 'it didn't work, i'm still here in this hellhole. still here with all this drama going on.' "

ultimately, the singer says the saving grace was her nurse. "my nurse melanie was a blessing into my life because she didn't tell me what i wanted to hear," she says. "she told me what i needed to hear. and she looked at me and said, 'you gotta get up, and you've gotta get out of here, 'cause you haven't fulfilled your destiny.' "

"i realized how people end up in the grave. because that one moment [snaps her fingers] of just breaking or feeling like i can't, i can't go on, it's too heavy. that was somewhere i don't ever want to go again."


if you can touch just one patient as a nurse, you have done plenty.......
While I would like to think that a nurse changed her life around, I am a bit more cynical and believe the entire event was staged. I'm not sure many people go from being so depressed that they want to end their lives, to giving interviews all within a 10 day window. Oh, and strangely coincidentally, she has a new album coming out just a couple of days after the "incident". Furthermore, if you really want to harm yourself, you do not tell someone you just tried to kill yourself Right after you do it, so the manager can miraculously save you. Okay, maybe i'm a bit jaded, but hey I've been a social worker for the last decade =).

Quote from rr0416While I would like to think that a nurse changed her life around, I am a bit more cynical and believe the entire event was staged. I'm not sure many people go from being so depressed that they want to end their lives, to giving interviews all within a 10 day window. Oh, and strangely coincidentally, she has a new album coming out just a couple of days after the "incident". Furthermore, if you really want to harm yourself, you do not tell someone you just tried to kill yourself Right after you do it, so the manager can miraculously save you. Okay, maybe i'm a bit jaded, but hey I've been a social worker for the last decade =).

I think she was reaching out for help. Granted, not the best way to do it, but she may have been desparate. I do believe one profound statement from a stranger can save your life. I believe it because I've experienced it. Angels are everywhere.

Quote from rr0416While I would like to think that a nurse changed her life around, I am a bit more cynical and believe the entire event was staged. I'm not sure many people go from being so depressed that they want to end their lives, to giving interviews all within a 10 day window. Oh, and strangely coincidentally, she has a new album coming out just a couple of days after the "incident". Furthermore, if you really want to harm yourself, you do not tell someone you just tried to kill yourself Right after you do it, so the manager can miraculously save you. Okay, maybe i'm a bit jaded, but hey I've been a social worker for the last decade =).

Quote from NurseLoveJoy88She is being sued by a married mans wife that is alot for someone to go through and obviously had a huge effect on her.

I agree. It's great that she gave the nurse her props for telling her what she needed to hear, but this woman's history is one bad decision after another. At some point you have to own up and take responsibility.

Quote from FribbletThere are consequences for bad decisions. Fantasia is an idiot.That's all I'm going to say about this.

Quote from PurpleLVNI'm so glad that you are so perfect Fribblet and donster RN! Despite your personal feelings toward Fantasia, there were and are circumstances that lead up to her decision to "end it all". There were lies that were told, deadlines to meet, family and friends "relying" on her for their needs and wants,etc. The stressors of life-that we everyday people deal with- that can be doubled when one is a celebrity and in the public light as she and many others are. We are all human and make bad decisions throughout life-some known and unknown to others. He who is without sin, cast the first stone!!So instead of calling her names, how about showing some empathy and compassion, thanking God that she did not succeed and is on the road to therapy and recovery.

wow I am appalled at the attitudes here. Who are we to say why she tried to commit suicide or just assume it was a publicity stunt?! You have NO IDEA what's going on in her life, beyond what the media says. You obviously dont remember what you were taught about psych-mental health nursing, suicide attempts are almost never actually about dying its about not wanting to feel pain anymore. The fact that she told someone doesn't mean anything. And im sure since she's a celebrity she was hounded for interviews, just because she answered some questions doesn't mean she was suddenly up and cheery and totally faked it all. I hope you aren't this judgmental of your patients.

Quote from Tarabarawow I am appalled at the attitudes here. Who are we to say why she tried to commit suicide or just assume it was a publicity stunt?! You have NO IDEA what's going on in her life, beyond what the media says. You obviously dont remember what you were taught about psych-mental health nursing, suicide attempts are almost never actually about dying its about not wanting to feel pain anymore. The fact that she told someone doesn't mean anything. And im sure since she's a celebrity she was hounded for interviews, just because she answered some questions doesn't mean she was suddenly up and cheery and totally faked it all. I hope you aren't this judgmental of your patients.