New grad asked to resign during orientation need advice

1 SO I am pretty new to this but here is what's going on...I basically had a hard time finding a job since graduating in May 2010...I was working as a unit clerk in a community hospital and finally decided to apply there since I had no job offers from other hospitals my gut always told me not too but I felt pressured from my family to just get a job. I began orientation in August, I was hired for a telemetry floor but since my floor was getting renovated I was placed on an orthopedic floor where I was for a month then after me complaining because it's nothing like a tele floor they put me on a telemetry floor for my first 12 hour shift what a difference...so anyway once I got to my unit I felt so upset all the time had a hard time adjusting and just felt plain stupid...I guess it is normal to feel this way when your new but at the moment I felt alone...I had a total of 8 weeks orientation and I feel like I had an unfair orientation, so on my last week of orientation I received a call from HR where I was asked to meet with the educator head, my unit manager, and the nurse recruiter, I was so nervous I tried my best to hold back tears and this is when I was given an ultimatum I was told they can only give me 1 more week (3days of 12hr) orientation and prove to them I can take a load of 7 to 8 patients (because I get very overwhelmed after 5 patients) and they even said they don't think it will make a difference or I can resign or I run the risk of getting fired. I ended up resigning because I was scared to get fired and I also forgot to mention I was offered a job in the wound care center of my hospital per diem prior to all this and when I called them to tell them my decision I let the recruiter know if I could take the position she told me initially yes and then said she had to call me back which she never did. I finally called the lady in charge of the wound care and she told me they (HR) told her not to hire me I called the recruiter and she told me something completely different I was mad because I feel like all this was done on purpose so now I'm basically left with no job after 8 weeks of orientation and I don't know what to do...I feel more hurt because I was told they were willing to invest time in me yet they never cared to address my concerns..I cant beleive I worked in this place since 2008 for something like this happen to me...I would appreciate any advice on this I really have lost all hope and this really makes me feel like a complete failure, I can't stop crying and simply am a wreck...
It's done. Move on. I think you have to get up, dust yourself off, and get back on the bike. Get those resumes out there. Volunteer. Consider the flu shot clinics this winter. Mostly, stop looking back.

thank you for your reply I have no one around me to really understand how I am feeling but appreciate the honesty...

This is rough. Im a new grad too, currently going through orientation myself and so far its been rough. My preceptor have not given me the best feedbacks and I feel like my job is in jeopardy. Like the other person said, I think it is best for both of us to dust off all those negative energy and tension and look ahead. Identify where we need to improve most, what our goals are, and how to get there. Hang in there friend. Im with you. Hope things turn out better for the both of us. STay positive!

You are going to have to move on whether you feel up to it or not. These things happen even to people with tons of experience, sometimes it just seems it is not meant to be. Try to review in your mind what happened and how you can improve your performance from your side of the table, so that you have a better chance of surviving your next chance. Good luck.

I've been a nurse for 40 years and my career started out like yours and did not get better until I became an "independent contractor" finding work with private duty patients who appreciated me. It's too late to tell you not to become a nurse, but if I had to do over, I would never become a nurse. It is the most abusive profession in the world. You get abused by patients, visitors, coworkers, doctors and supervisors. You can do no right and they can do no wrong. If you want to continue in nursing, find a job with a registry where you get paid more and work at your own schedule. And if you don't like where they send you, just don't go back. Or find a private duty job on your own through newspaper ads or employment agencies. I'm sorry you've been treated so badly, but that's nursing! And remember, sometimes fate kicks you in the tail to get you to go do what you really enjoy doing and should be doing.

Oh my gosh, I feel so sorry for you; but, I also feel things happen for a reason and that job was not for you. I know exactly how you feel because this happens to more people than you know. Basically, orientation can be unfair because there are SO many nurses out there that employers don't feel the need to invest their time in those who may not be a perfect fit for the unit right from the beginning. Here's what I say to that: You may have had the potential to be the best nurse on the floor and they let you go. Their loss. And, if it was that miserable for you to begin with, it wasn't going to get any better. Don't shed another tear in their behalf. They could care less or this would not have happened to you. There is no excuse to abuse anyone at anytime, nurse or not.

rg11 I know the feeling thruout my orientation on 3 different floors I had about 10 different preceptors...and your trying to absorb everything they each say but then you begin thinking which one is the correct way...I thank you for the support and I wish you all the luck during orientation try not to give up I hear we will feel like this for at least a year thanks again for the feedback

Thank you all for responding I didnt think anyone would respond...caliotter3 thank you I have been reviewing all that happened in my head I know I can do it I guess i have to use what happened as a lesson and learn from it...Goodmoose "And remember, sometimes fate kicks you in the tail to get you to go do what you really enjoy doing and should be doing. Thank you for that I really hope your right I really appreciate the response..nursing is not like I thought it would be...

seekingedu- My orientation experience was horrible! I used to come home crying almsot everyday and having so many diff preceptors didnt help...I thank you for your kind words and sometimes things do happen for a reason hopefully its for something better because this just happened this week I guess thats why I feel so crappy again thank you

You are very welcome and I am so sorry that happened to you! You were in a toxic environment with toxic nurses and unfortunately, that's probably not the only place they exist. Just let that horrible experience go and realize that although it felt and still feels like heck, you might have learned some things that will enhance your skills. Focus on that as a positive factor and apply whatever skill you learned to benefit someone else in the future. Even if it was the correct way to hang a specific med, it all counts. I'm in your corner. :-)

Holy Cow how does anyone ever get to be an experienced nurse with soooooooooooooooo many pitfalls in the path i am a pre nurse student and all i hear is how really bad it is in the beginning of ones nursing career I am 50ish malewho has wanted to be a nurse since my early 20s but due to family obligations i have had to wait till now to begin i still feel as strong in my desire to be a nurse even thru all the negative comments i have heard and read about i want to honestly say THANK YOU to all of you here who have taken your time to comment here on all nurses believe it or not what i read here makes me feel stronger in my desire to one day be a nurse THANK YOU ALL

It may not appear that way, but its a blessing in disguise.7-8 pt sucks big time- its a tall order .you wouldnt have wanted to stay there. believe me. unfortunately we realize that no companies have any loyalty anymore to anyone.so dont take it personally. They want to find people stupid enought to take these rediculous loads- let em find someone else to do it. no wonder its toxic there. they did you a favor. scope out other jobs.I mean as in not nursing. best wishes to you.