Thinking about renewing RN lic but......

As a person I have anxiety, I overthink things all the time, can't sleep if
I don't have peace of mind. I have read so many nursing blogs with other nurses
dealing with anxiety and depression and can't sleep who are already working. I
am not sure if I want to put myself into that kind of enviromnet again..
Got my RN BSN licence in 1999 worked for 10 monthts and then haven't worked.

Even if I get my licence renewed, I have to start with working nights...may be try to
get an evening shift..but it will be so stressful dealing with all kinds of
diseases and patients..Can't work in dr offices anymore due to the Medical
assistants now everywhere who are paid 16/hr. I am just thinking even If I renew
my license, then what? what do I do with it? I won't be able to work in a office
setting..medical reviews and alll until you have atleast 5 years of hospital
experience which I don't want to do.

When I first started as a nurse I was much stronger..now I am such a chicken and the type of person I am I will be a wreck..

I would like a job where I have the peace of mind and not scared and not
worry about going to work next day..cuz I don't need it at this point of my
life.. I am glad I am not the only one who feels this way..when I read the
blogs....I heard worse things happnening to new nurses...

The type of person I am I will worry so much about the next day work that I
won't enjoy anything. Peace of mind is more important to me than money..The nurse refresher program I am enrolled in is so much work..not that I am lazy but I am just thinking If I don't want to work on the floor, whats the point of renewing my licencse. I know I am hard-worker but at the end if I know this kind of job will make my life more stressful ..what's the
point...right..Am I thinking right?

Are there any RN jobs where I have a easy transition..I want to take it slow..
Sounds like you already know.I don't think there is an easy transition. Probably was easier in '99 what, with all the changes in healthcare and the sheer lack of nursing jobs now.

At this point, you would need to take a refresher class

It doesn't sound like you really want to. If you have other alternatives then take them and enjoy.

Quote from noc4senufAt this point, you would need to take a refresher class

op...i was wondering about something. have you ever seen a psychologist for a thorough evaluation? my husband has add, adhd, and ocd.he is on meds for anxiety and has had counseling specifically for his ocd, which has made all the difference in the world in his quality oflife and, therefore, in mine.his brain just wouldn't shut down and let him quit worryingand obsessing about every little detail.just a thought. good luck! :kiss