New Grad out of oreintation and totally miserable!!

Hi all! Like many new grads I was eager to get new position postgraduation and excited about taking on all the new responsibilites and learning experiences I would have throughout orientation. I completed a great capstone experience in Labor/Delivery but was told after graduation that the policy on the unit was to train new GNs in all areas (i.e.Mother-Baby, Nursery and Levle 2 NICU) before transfer to L/D. So b/c had great experience thought it was worth the 6mo-year I would have to committ to in order to reach my ultimate goal. Little did I know Mother-Baby was not a good fit, very slow paced, didn't feel challenged or learning much from day one and to make it worse..my preceptor was aweful. She too hated her job was promised L/D and hadn't gotten it so she dumped pt's on me from day one and didn't want to spend any time teaching me anything, just belittling me for mistakes. So I almost quit, applied at another hospital a few weeks into oreintation and then got talked into staying by HR. Long story short stayed I still hate it, they hired a recent grad who hired on behind me b/c she was a "doula" a midwifes labor coach. Now I am having trouble finding a hosptial to look at me for any area outside Mother-Baby or Nursery which I don't want to do anymore. Any advice to "sell" myself in an interview to other hosptials and get out of this rut would be much appreciated. Thanks!!! Hope there are new grads out there having a better go at nursing than me.
Scrittman,I am very sorry you are having such a bad experience on your very first job. I re-read your post a couple of times to make sure that I understood the actions you have already taken - and I noticed something missing.... have you talked to your supervisor? I would recommend that you make an appointment to talk with your supervisor and make sure she knows how you feel. Avoid finger-pointing, and just focus on your own personal goals and expectations. In my opinion, the most important responsibility of any nurse leader is to create an environment that enables nurses to deliver the best care possible. This is a huge job with enormous stress. Don't assume that she already knows how you feel. Give her a chance - after all, she must be 'good people' since she welcomes new grads. In the meantime, don't confuse fast-pace with superior nursing. Try to become the best Mother-Baby nurse on the unit. It's a wonderful environment for developing your interpersonal and teaching skills. Finally, I would really encourage you to read "Crucial Conversations". It can provide you some very effective methods for handling situations like the one you describe with your awful preceptor.
Quote from rbezemekScrittman,I am very sorry you are having such a bad experience on your very first job. I re-read your post a couple of times to make sure that I understood the actions you have already taken - and I noticed something missing.... have you talked to your supervisor? I would recommend that you make an appointment to talk with your supervisor and make sure she knows how you feel. Avoid finger-pointing, and just focus on your own personal goals and expectations. In my opinion, the most important responsibility of any nurse leader is to create an environment that enables nurses to deliver the best care possible. This is a huge job with enormous stress. Don't assume that she already knows how you feel. Give her a chance - after all, she must be 'good people' since she welcomes new grads. In the meantime, don't confuse fast-pace with superior nursing. Try to become the best Mother-Baby nurse on the unit. It's a wonderful environment for developing your interpersonal and teaching skills. Finally, I would really encourage you to read "Crucial Conversations". It can provide you some very effective methods for handling situations like the one you describe with your awful preceptor.